FrayedHeartString

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zombie like by FrayedHeartString, literature

stages and numbers by FrayedHeartString, literature

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stages and numbers

i return to words when my heart becomes too heavy to carry on my own i prop up veins and chambers with letters and words begging it to float again it's funny too how words got me back here again in this place it's funny how things like stages and numbers don't mean a whole lot until they've been shoved together like stage and four or maybe five and they hang over the head of the man you once wondered if he loved his comics more than you but you were young and sad and he didn't know how to handle it and you both weren't good at showing it and you know now he loves you more than anything stage and four maybe five are harmless enough on their own but pair them together and they rip at the corners of your mouth and twist your back and steal the air from your chest i didn't want to return to my words but here i am

hard feelings by FrayedHeartString, literature

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hard feelings

i performed my grief behind closed doors and in a shaking car twisting around the bends of the small town near my apartment i screamed words that were not my own but felt they were born of my heart and i went quiet in his presence so quiet angry and quiet and sad and relieved and patient and ready to be free i held words between my teeth of all the bits i had never said but desperately wanted to i tried to make myself smaller in mind but bigger in heart to retrieve all the gentleness he had scrubbed away my nihilism is for caring of others not saying fuck it all because we don’t matter i don’t matter we don’t matter no we

instructions on death by FrayedHeartString, literature

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instructions on death

how to keep your dead grandmother alive:* keep a horrendously ugly and beautiful easter bunny decoration on your desk that she’d hidden away and you’re not sure why - honestly, it should be in an art museum whisper her name in the morning when you wake up, under your breath exhale it like your breath doesn’t taste awful and like she still has one speak of her only in contractions, so you don’t have to worry about past tense and present tense she’s amazing, she’s beautiful, she’s lovely, she’s the best cookie maker and quilter in rural kansas *even though she has been in her grave in kansas f

pause by FrayedHeartString, literature

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pause

i'm not sure why it took so long to love myself i'm not sure why it took so long to recognize the fire, the molten courage, coalesced within my blood perhaps those shuddered steps were won after years of hating a face and skin that betrayed who i really felt i was [not even a porcelain doll but at least someone who could walk out of the house without feeling like her face was a roadmap for everyone else's disappointment yes take a left turn at the pimple on her forehead and around the scar on her right cheek perhaps then we can find her a body that does not insult our view] perhaps they were dug in deep after fighting off boy after boy who c

if someone loves you by FrayedHeartString, literature

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if someone loves you

some boys will tell you that they love you, while breathing another name under their breath. then it’s like they’re not really lying to either of you, or any of us at all, but we know they harbor untruths in their backpocket like spare change after the diner. my momma said a boy will never hit you if he loves you. and if he does hit you, he’ll do it again, no matter how many “i’m sorry” and “i love you” and “it won’t happen again“‘s will spill out of his mouth in haste. you will remember those words a month later as his fist connects with your face and the world goes sid

strength by FrayedHeartString, literature

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strength

a week after i graduated high school as i was going into mary's graduation party her father stopped me and said, "selina, you've done so well, you're very talented. i can't wait to see what you do in the future. we expect great things from you." and i told him thank you but all i could think was, "yea, if i don't kill myself, first" it was been two years since then i am in college now survived an emotionally abusive ex(ass)hole on scholarship for track met exceptional people cried a lot laughed a lot, too gotten stupidly drunk with my favorite people and learned to love in new ways i am not that same girl anymore who almost didn't even make i

letters to boys by FrayedHeartString, literature

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letters to boys

dear ginger, i’d rather be a pretty pink princess who reads comic books and kisses boys and pisses you off than ever be that girl again who tried too hard to be what you wanted and never what i wanted - dear swedish boy, i swore to alannah that i wouldn't write about you anymore that i would stop living in a time of two years ago because you left you're not coming back into my life you happened veni vidi vici you know? so i think this is the last time words about your bright blue eyes and the impeccable smile your love for disney and art and roses and paper things will be released from my fingertips yes i loved you i love you i love

carcass by FrayedHeartString, literature

boy across the sea by FrayedHeartString, literature

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boy across the sea

please come back i will wrap you in my arms grip the fabric of your shirt and lean my head against your shoulder you were the only one i could hug and feel at peace your smile was my favorite treat in the afternoon and on my lonely days i wanted to turn to you in that stupid art room and say, "boy, i love you. boy, i love you and i want to spend lots of time with you we can watch tangled and play chinese checkers and you can make paper flowers and put them in my hair while i trace the contours of your face on paper although i'd much rather caress them with my own hands" "boy, i love you." please come back.

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zombie like by FrayedHeartString, literature

stages and numbers by FrayedHeartString, literature

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stages and numbers

hard feelings by FrayedHeartString, literature

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hard feelings

instructions on death by FrayedHeartString, literature

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instructions on death

pause by FrayedHeartString, literature

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pause

if someone loves you by FrayedHeartString, literature

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if someone loves you

strength by FrayedHeartString, literature

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strength

letters to boys by FrayedHeartString, literature

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letters to boys

carcass by FrayedHeartString, literature

boy across the sea by FrayedHeartString, literature

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boy across the sea

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About FrayedHeartString

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Nov 29
United States
Deviant for 15 years
She / Her

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_{_{my name is selina marie periwinkle daffodil skittles mcgraw.

usually ambulatory, insanely tall, slightly insane.

i love sleep, even if i don't get a lot of it.

i like people, even when i say i don't.

and i think you're absolutely beautiful and that you always deserve to smile. just so you know.}}

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FrayedHeartString

May 25, 2014

Devious Journal Entry

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i won't be on here for awhile.

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FrayedHeartString

Apr 30, 2013

Ohmygoodness

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To whomever gifted me the premium membership, you are absolutely lovely. I don't know who keeps doing this for me out of the blue, but I can't tell you how much I appreciate it. I'm terribly sorry I haven't posted in awhile minus today's, it's just, I haven't written much. This week is final's week for my first official year of college and so I've been trying to survive that lovely mess. But a week from today I will be back in my own comfortable room with my evening sun and adorable dog. I know I'll be writing more once I'm there. Anyway, I hope you all are doing well. I miss talking to you guys dearly, and it's sad to me how I barely hear

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FrayedHeartString

Aug 4, 2012

well

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 i got rid of a lot of things from in my gallery well, i hid them anyway i got tired of looking at them and nobody reads my old stuff anyway nobody reads my stuff now which is okay i've become redundant and i've stopped writing much anyway

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Kagisnad

Apr 17, 2014

i don't usually like poetry
but i like yours

Carmalain7

Mar 3, 2014

Hey. If described to me, I would have assured the describer that your poetry is not for me, I would appreciate it, yes, but it is so far outside the spectrum of writing that usually gets to me.

After reading a piece, I still would have assured the describer that, literarilly, it wasn't for me, I appreciate it and the process, but the techniques you use are far different than those I am drawn to in most poetry.

After reading a few pieces though, I can't help but admire the raw honesty in your words - the small pictures into the ups and downs of your world that you allow the reader to view when most (including myself) would have trouble just uncovering them in private.

I know this is meandering, but I just wanted you to know that - in many ways - I envy your writing style, the straight-forwardness, and whilst it was your DD that brought me here, I'm glad I continued to explore further.

I know you might not be too active, but I'm still happy to watch and see what big things you have in store for your future (seeing as you didn't 'kill yourself first'

). Plus, any friend of Stephany's is worth the watch on that alone; aside from me, she seems to have an eye for awesome and talented people.

All the best.

Chaosfive-55

Mar 3, 2014

Congratulations on your Daily Deviation...talk about the best revenge!

FrayedHeartString

Mar 12, 2014

Thank you very much! <1+2

^{Happy birthday, my lovely heartsister. ♥

We may not speak as much, but I have never ever forgotten your, nor forgotten what it feels like to have a piece of you with me. I hope you have an absolutely wonderful birthday.}

Anima-Monique

Nov 29, 2012

enjoy the tomorrow ♥