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FrayedHeartString

Published: Sep 25, 2012

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i laugh and i say "ha"
and i know that no boy is meant to fall in love with me
i may fall in love
with boys
and moments and songs and paintings
but it shall never be returned to me
what is love anyway?
that is what every great poet
has ever asked
in some silly way
and i ask
what is love?
i know my mother loves me
in how she sends me care-packages while i'm away
and she remembered to pack my favorite book
without asking
i know my father loves me
in how he sends me photos of sunsets that he knows
i would enjoy most
and that i would rush outside
just to photograph
i know my best friend loves me
whenever i come home and we watch movies
and i yell at her
and she yells back
i'm so damn happy around her
but i've never known a boy to love me
and for it to last
one boy held me in his arms
and it felt like infinity
but i suppose some infinities
aren't quite as long
as others

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